I am so thankful for small revelations. I overwhelmed at how smallest whisper can change both my outlook and emotions.
Anyone who knows me can tell you that I am an emotional person. I feel things deeply, and I’m easily given to tears. I’ve mostly seen my emotional side as something to be ashamed of, feeling like I must be the most up and down rollercoaster of a person ever. But over the last couple of years I’ve learned to see my emotion as a gift. Because I feel things deeply, the Lord often shares His heart with me, revealing things in my heart, or telling me things about His heart as I feel.
This week has been a hard week. I knew a hard conversation was coming and all i could do was cry. I was so upset with myself for crying over something that hadn’t even happened yet! But I couldn’t stop the tears. The conversation came and went, and tears flowed throughout. But a few days later, I felt theLord say, “Tears make your heart soft”. And I thought about that statement and realized that I had plenty of opportunity to be angry, or cynical, but instead I was tender. And I realized that because of the hours I spent crying, my heart was being prepared to not be bitter. The Lord was helping me guard my heart. I still felt the sting and surprise of my circumstance, but I wasn’t mad!
It’s such a small revelation, but I’m so thankful!
